New beginnings...

Okay, so I basically just vented this out at Ari, but I'm going to say it all again here anyway, Because it really annoys and frustrates the hell out of me.


I love my grandmother, but I hate going shopping with her. She always buys me stuff I don't want/need. I don't say 'No, I don't want any' for my health. I say it because I don't fucking want it.

Now I have an entire chicken. A box of crackers. And a box of poptarts I don't want. Not little boxes. But Sam's Club size. 36 poptarts. 32 packs of crackers. And a chicken that was probably given hormone suppositories because there's no way it can get that big naturally at the age they slaughter those bad boys. She said 'I'll give you half =D' and I was like 'No. I don't want any chicken. I'm tired of chicken.' And so she buys it, and then leaves the WHOLE THING here at the house.

I didn't want half. Much less the whole goddamn thing.

Just. So frustrating when people don't listen to you. Just because I like it doesn't mean I want any. When I say No I fuckin mean No. Not 'Yes, I want some, but I'm saying No because I don't want you to buy it for me'. It's 'No, I don't want any. And I definitely don't want you to buy it for me because I don't fucking want any.'

I know she loves me, and she wants me to eat, but I eat. I'm not going hungry. I'm just eating better because I can't splurge on useless shit. If she really wanted to help me, she should have bought a giant bag of vegetables instead of diabetes covered in frosting.

I've been reading fanfic recently. It just, kinda hit me. Like a good book, the story just drags you in. One was Hikaru no Go, totally NC-17, and it had Ogata in it. That........ is kind of self explanatory, really.


Then I found a link to a great ATLA fanfic. Rated T, which is good because Katara is like, 14 and. No. Just. Don't do it fanfic writers. At least age them up, please .__. Both were from Fandomme at the Pit O Voles and they're both pretty old, [2 years is old in fanfic land, right >_>?] but at least complete. I ate both of the long stories up because the writing was good, it didn't fall into all of those same traps that many fanfics with Zutara in them might fall in and... I'm still a Zutara fan. Wouldn't have ever gotten into the shipping wars. Though I've always shipped, I never got into that weird rage people get into... B| But I loved the chemistry between the two and really, out of all the characters in Avatar, I liked Aang the least. Just about everyone topped him in my like-o-meter. Even Katara, especially Katara after she became kick ass water bending master extraordinaire. Toph, Sokka [oh Sokka], Zuko, Iroh. Hell, Azula was awesome and I will always wonder if anything can top my horrid glee at the end of Season 2 when she [quite literally] poked an electricity laced hole through the DBZ 'I'm Powering up, Wait for it!' trope. Watching it again, I still go 'Oh snap!'



One thing true about all stories I read, no matter what the content or rating or fandom, it has to make me laugh. Not even a 'Hahahah' funny laugh. An incredulous 'Oh shiiiiiii- they. did. not! Ooohhh snaaaap!' laugh will do. As I've gotten older, the laughs come a lot easier now. Youth truly is wasted on the young.

I have a gallon of milk in my fridge that expired 06-02-10.




I am scared to remove it. :[

-but Firefox, I'm leaving you.

Not for IE, oh gods no. Maybe it's gotten better, with security holes the size of a compact instead of a semi-truck, but their tabs and other things signal a DNW.

No, I've left you for FLOCK, since I already had it on my computer anyway from when I had to upload masses of pictures into photobucket and doing it one at a time [since the bulk uploader didn't work in FF or the IE tab] was just not an option for 132 mood icons. I apologize, since we've had a long an fulfilling relationship. Sure, it had its ups and downs, mostly ups, mind you, but now that I have ljlogin on FLOCK, that was all that kept me dedicated to you.

Flock doesn't take 3 minutes just to open, and when I loaded OMGPOP, which always made you stutter incomprehensibly, it loaded up in 10 seconds. Maybe even less. I lament it had to end this way, but we'll see one another again some day. I promise.

When I upload all my bookmarks, it'll be official. My default is already FLOCK, and I won't have to open up FF again. CNN.com videos is still a bitch no matter which browser I'm in, so I just chalk it up to that site being a douchenozzle.

Mmm. Going to NJ was fun. The only irritation besides my not managing to avoid ALL the tolls was the 40 dollar ticket I got for not putting an addition 25 cents int he parking meter for another thirty minutes. Jebus, that should be criminal. 25 cents should not equal a 40 dollar ticket.

Otherwise. I've been reading a lot of books. Not many were on my book list. I got two books on CD to transfer to my MP3 [Oryx and Crake + The Road] and I listened to Anansi Boys by Gaimon on the way up. I really liked it, and I think I should just devour his catalog of stories when I get the chance. At the moment I'm trapped in Raymond E. Feist's books. I've read 6 so far, The Riftwar Saga and the Krondor's Sons books. The Serpent War is next, but I have Storm Front and Good Omens to read before I get that saga. Mmm. Good Omens. I think I'll buy that book, since I really will read it over and over again over the years. Along with Devon Monks series of books. I read the new one and realized I forgot way too much of what happened e____e and the second half comes out in November. I have Watership Down, too. Wow, I have a lot of books out.

Otherwise, I've been wanting to draw, and I've been thinking a lot about the story I put on hold after finishing NaNo two years ago... I'm still really stuck between having the Organizations being legal or illegal. I seriously need to come up with a concrete list of the positives and negatives, but I can only think of how the story will feel if I change it. Even if this is only going to be a short story [I already started the outline by hand] changing this might mean I have to redo everything else I did before. I'm not too sad about it, but that goes on the list of positives and negatives.

And now, I'm going to go and make dinner for my mother's birthday. Because I'm a shitty daughter who forgot it was her birthday until her 7 year-old sister reminded her at 9pm. So I proceeded to not say anything and now that I did the shopping I will make dinner, clean the kitchen and try not to be so shitty a daughter.

I'm sure there were other things I wanted to say, but after my comp blue screened and I had to finish this on my mother's comp, I'm off to do... work...

Aaa, so much stuff I wanted to briefly talk about.

( Anita Blake )

Coming off of the Flirt book, the mini book, Hamilton starts to talk about how she does a mini story. A scene sticks in her head and sometimes it just won't get out of her head and she does it and everything comes out all the better for it. The little scenes I have in my head for my story that stalled are part of the reason why it's so hard for me to write a full book... that and I don't know how to end them. BUT that's neither here nor there. I think I'm going to do a side story I never would have been able to do in the full story anyway, since neither Blake nor Blaine are the main characters and it's only the results that matter in the main story. Even if I never actually DO include it in the main story, it'll be nice to just.... write and complete a story. It's been ages since I've done that when they weren't PWPs and, hey, the point of those is there IS no plot so there's nothing much to tie up in the first place.

Aaaand moving on to the more distressing news [to me] is that they're wrapping up the Census where I live. My CLA thinks they're collapsing my area into another one and we'll all be out of a job. Now, I knew it would happened eventually, as it was made perfectly clear to us that we're temporary. But since this IS government work, I totally expected it to last longer than it was supposed to, or at least not wrap up EARLY. So now I'm super pissed, because the reason why I wasn't able to make as much money as I should have been is because my current job fucked me over for hours. Those first three weeks turned out to be even more critical. I was hoping I could make it up, but no. I can't. The best I can hope is to transfer to another unit, but I'm doubting that. So, wonderful. I'm out of the hole, the time I had to try and figure out something else is past. I can't afford to not go back on the schedule 6 days a week when I don't have another income to at least balance it out. My life? Fuck it.

Speaking with my CLA has been a great boon for me though. He's the one who's given me all the ideas about an interest inventory to see what most interests me and all the other stuff that will hopefully be of help. Even if it isn't, at least he tried, I tried. Maybe something good'll come from it.

The last 5 days have been filled with 4-5 hour nights of sleep which just IS NOT ENOUGH for me. Since I didn't have a binder to work last night, I stayed out to read, went to the library, and then I got home and went to bed before 10pm. And it was glorious. Now I technically have today off, SO... I'm going to go fucking enjoy it B|

I now have a reason to go to 7-11.



Oh, how I've missed you.

You know what I'm going to do? Instead of complaining about how half of the kitchen staff at my store needs to be fired, I'm going to watch a Good Eats marathon. Mmmhmmm.

And listen to Michael Jackson.

I've been sneezing and sniffling for the past week. It started off with nasal congestion and a sore throat. I got aches like the last time I was 'sick', so I was preparing for one of my not!colds and vainly hoping and praying that it was NOT allergies. Many people looked at me weird when I said 'I hope it's a cold :[' but hell. A cold lasts 1 week and then you're bad to normal. Allergies last ALL SEASON. I'd much rather have the cold.

I took nyquil. It.... didn't really work. *sob*

I took some benadryl. I can breath again.

FML allergies. WHY NOW.

I had a bunch of things to talk about... I think most of it has to do with reading the paper and how shit sucks and if there's any good news it's stuff I don't care about... Or how I see a cop every day now -or at least the car- whenever I leave my house. I used to go, like, 3 weeks without seeing one. What the hell is up with the county and having cops everywhere? I'd feel more secure if... I knew wtf they were doing and if I didn't see them just loitering in places waiting to give people speeding tickets just to try and pay their wages. Times are tough, but I can't afford a speeding ticket, sorry.

That and work as been boring as sin. I swear. I'm glad I got 5 days this week, but... They called me to work the past two days, when the weather was awesome and I was going to go bike riding while everyone was at work. Now, I finally get my day off, but it's supposed to RAIN all day. GD you weather. GDU.

But, on a positive note, boring work means drawing. I miss drawing. .__.

( Huge images under here )

I might bring my sketchbooks and go to the bookstore for a few hours tomorrow...... instead of staying on the computer all day.... yeah, that sounds good... Oh god how my drawing skills have suffered...


OH OH OH. And I'm going to scar you all with this. No cut 8D