New beginnings...

Oh my, I'm going to starve. Not enough hours at work, and I can't spend my tax money until I know about the job or not. I'm still amused [read = annoying and rolling my eyes] that they feel 20 cents is a decent raise. I'm twenty five [now] working in a grocery store. Oh, my life. What am I going to do with it? I wish I knew. I feel younger than I am.


Spent at least an hour yesterday, between refreshing that gd plurk, searching through collapsingnight for this ONE icon.



At least 100 posts. I didn't even find it. My eyes probably glazed over and missed it, but it's still annoying to have not found it. I want the bigger picture of it to use as reference, but I have no idea where to find it. I want to redo a picture I'd done last year, but I'm horrid at leg positions. Ah well, that icon will have to do. The general layout should be enough.


Now, to finish reading Acheron. That boy's life ass horrible, but I laughed at him just as much as Fitz in the Farseer Trilogy. Can't do anything but laugh at how shitty his life was. It got better.

I should be going to my mother's house, but gaaaaaaaah I don't want to. I want to sit on my ass at home and tag all day. e__e

Borders Bookstore is closing near my house! That makes me sad. :[ I always preferred them over B&N and Books-A-Million. Walden's closed a couple years ago, so now we don't have any Borders or Walden's nearby. OTL Everything was 20-40% off though. Since I got my tax return back and I hadn't bought books for myself in a long time, I decided to splurge. I got Dogs 3 and 4, Ooku 4, the last two Allie Beckstrom novels, and Tim Butcher's Small Favors in hard back! Yes, it's like, number 8, but it was HARDBACK and only 7 dollars before the discount! I want all of them in hardback, so I couldn't pass that up, really! I've read them all, so the order doesn't matter too much.

I turned in my application for the CCC Trails program in California. I want to get away and just do stuff, but not sure if I really want to drop everything at home and go off XD I'm also not sure if I can do the physical portion. I definitely should have started working out before, but it was cold and I'm not shelling out for a gym membership. *sighs* Oh well.

The Orange push-up milkshake at 'Cook-Out' was... DELICIOUS. It was like a creamsicle, that you can suck through a straw. Oh god why so good... WHY.

I've been reading fanfic recently. It just, kinda hit me. Like a good book, the story just drags you in. One was Hikaru no Go, totally NC-17, and it had Ogata in it. That........ is kind of self explanatory, really.


Then I found a link to a great ATLA fanfic. Rated T, which is good because Katara is like, 14 and. No. Just. Don't do it fanfic writers. At least age them up, please .__. Both were from Fandomme at the Pit O Voles and they're both pretty old, [2 years is old in fanfic land, right >_>?] but at least complete. I ate both of the long stories up because the writing was good, it didn't fall into all of those same traps that many fanfics with Zutara in them might fall in and... I'm still a Zutara fan. Wouldn't have ever gotten into the shipping wars. Though I've always shipped, I never got into that weird rage people get into... B| But I loved the chemistry between the two and really, out of all the characters in Avatar, I liked Aang the least. Just about everyone topped him in my like-o-meter. Even Katara, especially Katara after she became kick ass water bending master extraordinaire. Toph, Sokka [oh Sokka], Zuko, Iroh. Hell, Azula was awesome and I will always wonder if anything can top my horrid glee at the end of Season 2 when she [quite literally] poked an electricity laced hole through the DBZ 'I'm Powering up, Wait for it!' trope. Watching it again, I still go 'Oh snap!'



One thing true about all stories I read, no matter what the content or rating or fandom, it has to make me laugh. Not even a 'Hahahah' funny laugh. An incredulous 'Oh shiiiiiii- they. did. not! Ooohhh snaaaap!' laugh will do. As I've gotten older, the laughs come a lot easier now. Youth truly is wasted on the young.

Well. Burying myself into books has succeeded in liberating me from my comp for a while. Actually, more so than that is my wireless connection being a right douche and not staying connected, so I either flake off to read or grab my sister's netbook to make sure nothing exploded on the internet before THEN flaking off to watch TV or read MOAR BOOKS. I have pretty much been eaten by The Dresden Files. ( Brief cut for spoilers from book 2 [Fool Moon] )

The reading of the books also ties into my wanting to start writing again. Unfortunately, I don't really know where to start. I've gotten a few drabbles written recently on my comp that refuses to connect to the internet that gets the juices flowing, but... I want to start a NEW story. With a new world and new characters and new problems. I just don't know where to start, especially when I haven't finished up properly with any of my others. B| There's so much to expand and make concrete that I don't know if I can really dedicate myself to something new when I can so easily jump back into my old one and make scenarios like that. Scenes that can be part of the story so easily if only I knew where it was going. *sighs* Story of my liiiife. A beginning and no ending.

Add onto the wanting to read and write is wanting to draw, but I haven't succumbed to that desire yet. I might as well, since my desire to RP has hit rock bottom. IM RP that's spontaneous is still fun. It may take a few hours, but then it's done and I can go back to the logs and re-read them and smile and go off and do whatever. Logging in and picking icons and trying to do plots is just killing me. I'm trying, but I am. Failing. Hardcore.

FML

Aaa, so much stuff I wanted to briefly talk about.

( Anita Blake )

Coming off of the Flirt book, the mini book, Hamilton starts to talk about how she does a mini story. A scene sticks in her head and sometimes it just won't get out of her head and she does it and everything comes out all the better for it. The little scenes I have in my head for my story that stalled are part of the reason why it's so hard for me to write a full book... that and I don't know how to end them. BUT that's neither here nor there. I think I'm going to do a side story I never would have been able to do in the full story anyway, since neither Blake nor Blaine are the main characters and it's only the results that matter in the main story. Even if I never actually DO include it in the main story, it'll be nice to just.... write and complete a story. It's been ages since I've done that when they weren't PWPs and, hey, the point of those is there IS no plot so there's nothing much to tie up in the first place.

Aaaand moving on to the more distressing news [to me] is that they're wrapping up the Census where I live. My CLA thinks they're collapsing my area into another one and we'll all be out of a job. Now, I knew it would happened eventually, as it was made perfectly clear to us that we're temporary. But since this IS government work, I totally expected it to last longer than it was supposed to, or at least not wrap up EARLY. So now I'm super pissed, because the reason why I wasn't able to make as much money as I should have been is because my current job fucked me over for hours. Those first three weeks turned out to be even more critical. I was hoping I could make it up, but no. I can't. The best I can hope is to transfer to another unit, but I'm doubting that. So, wonderful. I'm out of the hole, the time I had to try and figure out something else is past. I can't afford to not go back on the schedule 6 days a week when I don't have another income to at least balance it out. My life? Fuck it.

Speaking with my CLA has been a great boon for me though. He's the one who's given me all the ideas about an interest inventory to see what most interests me and all the other stuff that will hopefully be of help. Even if it isn't, at least he tried, I tried. Maybe something good'll come from it.

The last 5 days have been filled with 4-5 hour nights of sleep which just IS NOT ENOUGH for me. Since I didn't have a binder to work last night, I stayed out to read, went to the library, and then I got home and went to bed before 10pm. And it was glorious. Now I technically have today off, SO... I'm going to go fucking enjoy it B|

One: Fuck my cramps. I knew it would happen during the holidays. :|

Two: A Bill to lower the volume on commercials.

I, for one, think it's sad that we can even make such a bill. But there is the side of me that wishes this could be done immediately. I don't mind commercials. I don't pay attention to them half the time anyway. I wander to get a snack. Bathroom break. Talk with my mother, ect. When I do pay attention, it's because they're hilarious. What I don't like is that they are ricockulously loud and when my mother is trying to sleep and it BLASTS out, I more often than not mute the TV. How effective is your commercial if I'm not listening OR watching it? I wish they could have done this electively on their own.

And this made me laugh. On the run and updating Facebook. I don't know how it works in the UK, but... do IP addresses work differently over there? They can't get his general location from that? Or is he going via proxy and stuff? *amused anyway*

I've been reading [oh snap] but nothing from my not forgotten book list XD I saw this book on the shelf and thought, 'Oh, that looks good,' and went to the library to borrow it. I flew through Magic to the Bone by Devon Monk and enjoyed it. It has that same kind of sense of humor than L.K. Hamilton has, but the plot is different, main character is still a chick, but she isn't in denial; thank kami. As soon as I finish these last 15 pages of the second book, I'm going to sleep before these tylenol wear off. 10-6:30 tomorrow is going to SUCK some major donkey balls.

*in bed by 9:30*

Okay, so, I have my booklist that I'm slowly working on. I finished Call of the Wild and now I'm on White Fang. Jay has been giving me comics to read and I've been giving him some manga he might like. I'm reading Legendary right now, and I gave him Death Note, Blade of the Immortal, and Genshiken. He didn't like DN, which I find amusing, because I was kind of experimenting on him when I gave that to him XD; But he likes BotI and Genshiken, so that's something.

I have my movie list, too. I watched 'Once Upon A Time in Mexico', actually not on my list, but having RPed with Sands really made me want to see it. Andrew/Adam have a mad movie collection, so I'm going to raid theirs before I actually resort to Netflix. It's not like we have cable, so if I'm tired of the comp and want TV. *pops a movie in*

Oh. I think I forgot to mention this on here. I moved out. I now share a house with several other roommates. Smells like freedom. *breathes in*

Also. Click these damn eggs.

MOTHER FUCKING MADAGASCAR SNOW!!!

D< You suck snow. Die in a fire. Twice.

I will thank it however, for letting me sleep in because of no work. Wooo \o.

Saa, well. Let's see.

I finished Lolita. Oh what a twisted book. That poor bastard and his evil little nymphet. I don't really feel sorry for her at all. I don't know if I should feel sorry for either of them.

But, I read A Handmaid's Tale. In one night. I could have put it down, but fff. Why? I was avoiding the computer this weekend and WTF WHEN I GOT UP THIS MORNING I HAD 73 E-MAILS GOOD LORD WRY?! But anyway. A Handmaid's Tale. Daaaaaamn that ending! But it was good. I can't really explain it because I'm really lazy, but you all on my f-list should go read it. \o.

Since all of the Henrico Co. buildings and shit are CLOSED today. :| And I think tomorrow, too. Goddamnit. So I'll probably start up with John Sandford Again. I already own Winter Prey, and that's the next one. I'm still waiting for American Pyscho to get off hold. I was 3rd in line DX

Aaaand I think that's it. I don't know what to read after... Hrmmm...

That's right. I'm listening to/watching DtB Logan. :| Again.

What the heeeellll is up with my computer? I have ANOTHER trojan! I either had them before and never knew or they just suddenly discovered me. Son of a bitch! Have to burn this shit with FIRE.

Otherwise, everything is fine. Except that's a lie. My mother shrank yet another one of my sweaters. Line Dry. LINE DRY. WRRRRYYYY. I have NEVER shrunken something in the dryer. Ever. Not pants. Not sweaters. Not my clothes. Not her clothes. Nothing. And yet whenever she asks me for a certain color to wash so she has a full load, because laaawd forgive us for using the large or HEY even medium setting on our washer, I am filled with dread upon handing over my clothing for fear of shrinkage. It's taken me a few months to get clothes for work. I'd been wearing the same things to work in a revolving schedule of about 2 weeks. Then Christmas season came and I walked away with lots of new stuff for the new year so I wouldn't freeze to death. :| I might anyway, if they all end up being belly tops, and then I couldn't wear them to work ANYWAY.

Fail.

Total count. 2 Pairs of paints. Somewhere between 3-5 shirts.

GRAGH. She wouldn't shrink so many if they didn't end up her size. D< Then she recycles them from me and has new stuff to wear. Damn my long legs!

Work related: Oh man. VDOT is about to start up. Once I have the contact list, I'm gonna be JETTIN up a STORM. aka e-mailing shitloads of people. We're supposed to start on the 26th. 8D;;; *needs mental assistance*

Home related: I have started gelling ALL of my paperwork together. ALL of it that has been spread around my room for years now. I have a plastic bin than can hold hanging folders and I'm going to file all of that shit away. So far, I've done the paystubs [that I've found] for my current and last job. Started on my school loan papers, and have at least organized everything else into piles. Once I finish that, my desk will be cleaned off! Thank kami-sama. Then I can hook in my new speakers and leave them on my desk beside my monitor without fear of the JUNK pushing it off. That's why my old ones are on the floor beneath my desk. Once of them doesn't even work...

Books: I finished Hitchikers Guide to the Galaxy series. I was amused. Arthur has shittastic luck, how 'bout that? I started AND finished [in about 3 days] Obsidian Butterfly. The next in the Anita Blake series.

.............EDWARD IS AWESOMETASTIC. And no, not sparkly Edward. I'm talking sociopathic, assassin for hire, lycanthrope hunting, vampire hating Edward~ The book was aaaallllll about him. *cries softly* It was amazing 8DDD He amuses the SHIT out of me and having a book full of him was the best thing ever. I missed the other characters, but no one holds a candle to Edward, unless it's Jason and his perversions that will ONE DAY get his ass killed by Jean Claude. Or hell. Richard. He always puts his hands where they don't belong~ Then there's Asher and Damian and -*stutters to a halt* Oh fuck me. :| I'll stop rambling. Next on my list is The Green Mile. It should be at the library today~

A+ Cert: Okay. It's past time to start this up, for seriously. I have to get a schedule together. I need to cut back on RPing, and that's kinda sad because I JUST started getting back into it again. Enjoying it again after a time of just feeling so BLAH. I guess I'll use it as a reward for good habits? Or something.

I also must say hooray for freedom \o/ Sometimes, when people let you go you should feel it's a blessing and not a curse. Or it could be both, who knows. Either way, time to buck up and get my ass in gear. I also must latch on tighter. My f-list, you cannot escape me =DDD

Story: Stalled. I was hoping it would go on for a while even once November was over, but nope. I hit the author's block that I had to force myself through before. Now it's like I don't have that motivation. I think I'm going to go back and start adding information. I need to do it anyway and trying to write more at the moment just isn't going anywhere. I think I have the uniforms stabilized, so now I can add all of those details to the writing. Rings, earrings, I'm just not as detail oriented as I wish I was because I forget those things all the time. My observation skills are obviously not going towards human interactions. Faaiiil~

Geh. Back to work. Orders to do, and TONS of sign-offs I have to finish. TONS. The stack is, like, 1.5 times my middle finger high. *sobs* And that was not including the small stack I took off to do today. *throws self down stairs* Somebody help me T^T

Well, I wanted a book list? This one is something else to tack on?

The Big Read reckons that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed.

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicize those you intend to read.
3) Underline the books you LOVE.
4) Strike out the books you have no intention of ever reading, or were forced to read at school and hated.
5) Reprint this list in your own LJ so we can try and track down these people who've read less than 6 and force books upon them.

( Wow. I really DO need to read more. )

I fail.