New beginnings...

Long time no see personal LJ. I blame it solely on Plurk. There were a lot of things that I was supposed to continue ranting about, but my back hurts and I feel a little queasy.

I really need to get on the Otakon stuff, but I have no idea how many are coming. Really, I just want a firm number. Don't tell me who thinks they're going, or plan on going or aren't sure or whatever. I just want a nice solid number. e__e Creating the table isn't that hard, but I'm just... kinda over having to plan all this shit and dealing with the stress of some -what should be patented- stupid. If I didn't hate so passionately the idea of giving my money to someone else I'd let someone else do it. Last time I went to a con someone else planned the money out for I cringed because I felt like they were getting ripped off, and I didn't even PAY for a spot in the hotel room because I was broke and they needed my car to get there anyway. e__e

Otherwise, I should be going back to school for a few classes, but I need to get off my ass and register for classes and figure out what I'm going to take. It may be grant money [ie 'free'] but I don't want to waste it. I need to go by the school and pick up a catalog. I hate PDFs and I still like having a book in my hand that I can physically sit down with and flip through. Being on the computer is just a giant distraction to me. I want to take a sewing class and do patterns and... MAKE STUFF. I liked it when I took home ec in middle school, but my schedule in high school was just a clusterfuck of classes and I didn't/couldn't follow up on it.

That and I have an aversion to making things that just sit around the house and gather dust. It's another reason why I don't get canvas and do chalk pastels. I hate things lying around with nowhere to put them. Feels like a waste.

So yeah. And I applied for two USPS jobs. Both pay more than what I get now. I'm just... really hoping my not so great test score won't put me too low on the list to get hired. I have two bills that have only a year left before they're paid off, and if I get this job, I can pay them both off and just have a few less things to have to pay every damn month. Here's hoping. *crosses fingers*

*ticks off fingers*

Waitin' for monies.

Catching up on NaNo.

NOT watching TV

Washing clothes.

Conditioning hair.

SEARCHING FOR THAT LIBRARY BOOK.

If I complete at least half of these, I will consider today productive.


Considering I bought a nice, new, fresh sketchbook today, the TV and couch are calling my name. BUT I RESIST.

EDIT: I failed to find that book. B| But despite watching TV, I still got stuff done. Mainly washing clothes and folding them. I added my first picture in my sketchbook. |D At least it doesn't suck, though I didn't finish.

I had a bunch of things to talk about... I think most of it has to do with reading the paper and how shit sucks and if there's any good news it's stuff I don't care about... Or how I see a cop every day now -or at least the car- whenever I leave my house. I used to go, like, 3 weeks without seeing one. What the hell is up with the county and having cops everywhere? I'd feel more secure if... I knew wtf they were doing and if I didn't see them just loitering in places waiting to give people speeding tickets just to try and pay their wages. Times are tough, but I can't afford a speeding ticket, sorry.

That and work as been boring as sin. I swear. I'm glad I got 5 days this week, but... They called me to work the past two days, when the weather was awesome and I was going to go bike riding while everyone was at work. Now, I finally get my day off, but it's supposed to RAIN all day. GD you weather. GDU.

But, on a positive note, boring work means drawing. I miss drawing. .__.

( Huge images under here )

I might bring my sketchbooks and go to the bookstore for a few hours tomorrow...... instead of staying on the computer all day.... yeah, that sounds good... Oh god how my drawing skills have suffered...


OH OH OH. And I'm going to scar you all with this. No cut 8D

So, I had to get up today at 12 [which turned into 12:25] to go to my grandfather's house to take him to his appointment. I don't remember what time it was *supposed* to be at, but he wanted to get there by 1:15. Suffice to say, I got there at 1 and the hospital IS only 15 minutes away... but he wasn't ready until 1:20. We managed to get there, but of course it was raining cats, dogs, and other small creatures. He said he appointment was at 2 and we arrived at 1:45.

I actually hate arriving more than 5 minutes early for things. I'd rather be on time exactly or hell, even late. I don't like waiting if I don't have to. When I arrive I want things to get rolling. If you said something is going to happen at a certain time and I'm there, better get rolling. :| But anyway, he didn't go into his appointment until 2:45, which makes me wonder when the hell his appointment was *really*.

Anyway, the prequel leads to me escaping his house at 4 after we were done because I needed to go to the post office. THEN I went to the bookstore, read a few manga, and then I drew pictures. Mmmm. Art times.

( Yay for a scanner...! I like the second one best. )

I can has color manga?



Though it's not done. I have to get a texture in the background, crop, resize, and add some words. I think you're looking at my new header image. Yes. This totally girly thing. Who knows how long I'll keep it, but coloring it was fun. And NOW I know WTF they meant when they said multiply. I kept setting the BRUSH to multiply, but they meant the LAYER.

/dunce cap

I need to flutter through my textures to see what I've got in there besides paper, elements, and fabric. Amusingly, I used default textures and one custom for this.

If I broke your f-list? Sorry =o=

I think my 'Things I want' list is getting kind of long.

I'm going to buy myself a flat panel monitor for my birthday. I've been debating between a 19" and a 20", because I don't know if that extra inch is worth the 20-40 dollars. Everyone I talk to is like '\o. 20" ftw!!' and I think it's just because it's bigger. :|

The one thing I can consistently make in the crock pot my mother loves. Wait until I get these other recipes together >_> I'll be a crock pot master...! I have the recipes Manda gave me. I need to put them on my index cards so I can go shopping for the week.

RP has been fun. More than it has been in a long time. I don't know why, but suddenly I just got back into the swing of things and shit has been fun. I'm tagging everywhere [mostly] and getting good activity. More importantly, I'm keeping up with it all. That was my problem before, even when I was only down to two comms.

I'm chugging along with Photoshop. I think.... I can actually do DECENT hair. It's like some kind of miracle. I'm still wallowing in the mid-tones, lights not light enough, darks not dark enough, but I can work on that with time. For now, I want to be consistent so my icons all turn out the same. My line art is still clean, but I'm thinking of finding that 'drawn line' brush to try out. Once I get vector masks done right, I'll try out some patterns and textures. And coloring my lines... I think if I start my lines off brown, I'll be able to change the hue and saturation to make them different colors. >_> By using straight black, I can't change it... or haven't figured out to.

Activity check in a few days... I need to see how many threads I have... I don't like posting. But speaking of posting, Blaine's only done that once XD but he tags like... every fucking where. It's ridiculous... and Itachi's posted... twice? And they're ravaging it. Yay for activity? \o/

I need to get on a schedule again... the gym is getting boring.

Work calmed down like fuck all today. Still things to do, but I'm not drowning 8| I'm not sure what they're going to do, but I'm still contacting users. This is all going to happen someday and I'll need the info. I'd like to get that nice buffer zone good and fat, in case I fall on my face.

Bleach. AAARRRRGGGGG! DAMN you Kubo-sensei T^T

Naruto... Hmmmmm...

Fairy Tail [that I read yesterday] OH SNAP

Skip Beat [that I read yesterday] OH. SNAP. AHAHHA.

I don't feel like being more coherent.

And look! It's a pretty picture!



I don't think I ever THANK YOU PROPERLY JEN. *bum rushes and gropes* Tablets are AMAZING T^T

Though the picture isn't done yet, color aside. I still have a few seams to finish AND finish his 'gay looking shoes'... or so astrobright68 told me ~_~

I'm fuckin' TIRED. I took a nap, but last night I was going to go to bed as soon as it was feasible for me to sleep all night and not wake up. But my mother kept giving me stuff to do around the house, so I didn't get into bed until 10:45. I was annoyed as hell, because the stuff I wanted to at least attempt didn't get done.

You guys will receive Christmas cards.

They might arrive after New Years.

Shhhh.

Christmas is in... what? 10 minutes? Yay? I'm just happy I have off today. Thank Kami. And Friday. Then the same next week. Two four day weekends in a row will spoil me.

I drew a picture today. 8D I don't really know who they are. They're naked, too. I have no scanner to show you guys though. Too bad. I can't figure out what they'd wear. The one thing I wish I was better at drawing was feet. Hands, too, I suppose. My perspective in general sucks ass, so all of my bodies need work.

Pan keeps breeding and finding me eggs. ~_~ I have to check my scroll now every few days to make sure nothing new pops up there for me to kill >_>



Hopefully I'll get left alone tomorrow. I have stuff on the comp to do. And install my new speakers. Hellz yeah~

It's... A MIRACLE.

It's... DONE!

BEHOLD!



BLAINE THORPS fully inked 8D

I would like to thank... hell, no one. This shit took too long and CS3 raped me ;__; Though I suppose I should thank Kris for her fashion design nitpickery. I still think that fly looks weird, but hell if I'm fixing that shit now DX

Aaaaaaaaaand on a completely DIFFERENT note.

McCain chose a woman as his VP. OH LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWLS. You are a smart man. A very, very smart man. regardless of who you pick, there shall be records broken \o/

...unless you go independent, which means you actually do your fucking research XD \o7

Alright, so... I got my 6 month review. Communicate more. That's basically all of what it came down to. I just don't like e-mail my progress on everything and prefer to just e-mail when I'm done. If I don't say anything in an hour, okay, poke me. 's what I do, cus I know how I hate to be harassed about doing stuff. BUT, I guess I'll just have to suck it up and e-mail more. Hate the spam.

On that note, this guy has been trying to recruit me for his company. I'm pretty sure, as a programmer, I would get paid more. Bad thing is, he's looking for someone who does Java and C#. I HATE both of those languages/scripts. HATE them, and have since purged most, if not all of my knowledge of them out. I wouldn't mind the money, but I 1. like my current job, mostly; 2. don't want to move up into a job I'll hate going to every day.

Geez. Can't I at least make it to my yearly review or something? But who knows if a better chance will come around? ECPI still sends me those job opportunity e-mails, and if all else fails, they'll help me find another job like they helped me with this one. *whistles*

Aaaaand not work related [or at least business work] I have almost finish that damn picture I started inking last week. The hand took me ALL night. No idea why. I was doing other stuff, but still. SLOW. The pocket, neck, and right side of the hair were done, and the earrings/clip. What's left is... the jacket zippers/pockets, which are easy enough if I light a fire under my ass. Then the pants zipper and the chain going from his belt to his pocket. THAT is going to kill me softly, I'm sure.

Then. The. FUR. It's a huge gap in the picture XD His hood and his sleeve cuffs are missing because the fur hasn't been draw in. Ehehe >_> I cry at the idea of try to COLOR his monstrosity. the flat color should be easy. If I can get the hang of cell shading, that'll be okay, too... but I want the metal to SHINE and I fail at that. Yeah. I'm sad. Once all my lines are inked in and I can paintbucket without turning the whole screen blue, I think I might squee. 8D

Wish me luuuuuuck D8! And DAMNIT I'm fucking hungry >/