Ugh... motivational, but-
Jan. 7th, 2008 03:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kageisukeMy trip to the LTD Winter Conference was a mixed bag, truly. There were some parts I liked, and other parts I didn't. No matter what kind of convention you go to, it's always going to be like that, but... Well, the thing about it is, I would have enjoyed it more, but the bitch is like 3 days long. All talking. In 4-5 hour long intervals with different speakers.
They're inspirational, but I don't want 3 fucking days of that, and the people I go with are like, hardcore to the extreme and get up fucking early just to get close seats. I'd rather sleep in. I don't want to wake up at 6:45 to get there at 7:30 when the doors don't open until 8-8:30 and the thing doesn't even start until 9am. That's not even speaking for the poor bastards who got there at 5am and waited in line before us, so they can nab the good seats, then we come in behind to hold the fort while they go back and change.
It's not a damn concert. Even if it was, I still wouldn't. Only time I did something close to that was waiting in line for Hellsing Ultimate Dub Premier at Otakon 2 years ago. And I was sitting on the carpeted ground, eating a baked ziti, then had a book to read. That was a comfortable 3 hours, and I had nothing else planned anyway, so it didn't even matter. And the pre-reg line, but you know what? Even the wait out in that wasn't bad for me compared to LTD because I'm surrounded by people I know and can crack obscene jokes with...
For LTD, we waited in line outside. Outside, in the fucking cold, and I'm trapped because I didn't drive. To me, all that fuss isn't worth it. I think I should go every 6 months, twice a year, but they have 4 of them every year. Every three months. They'll want me to go, but I don't want to. Not worth it, to me. But the problem is, if I want to succeed in the business, the whole point of it is to be a good role modal and lead by example.
That's a really good thing, and I like that idea, but I don't want to go with those crazy people driving fucking 80-90mph on the way up and back. They're swerving all over the damn place and Rachael can't drive worth shit. She accelerates and decelerates and doesn't keep a safe distance and they all tailgate like bitches. I just went to sleep and hoped I was still alive when I opened my eyes next. That and Rachael randomly blasted her music while I was in the back, and I'm sleeping. Or was, and get jolted by either her sudden speeding and slowing, or a loud ass song when I didn't have any sleep the night before. That and we all were there at 8amish like we were supposed to, but ONE guy was late, so we turned around and had to pick him up. Seriously. No CP time, people. Then they wanted food. I was ready to fucking GO, and so we left an hour later than planned. Pain in my ass.
Getting up at 5:30-6:45am just for good seats to listen to people talk...? It's a waste. It cost 100 bucks just for the ticket. I can go to an anime convention for less and do more than sit and hear people talk all day. If I want to get anywhere in the business though, I have to, which is the problem. I wouldn't mind going, but I want to go and do it my way. Which is far more relaxed and no crazy fuckers speeding like they don't have any fucking sense.
The one thing that peeved me more than anything though, was that they were unorganized as shit. I am con!leader planner!X-TREME so for me, not knowing how much stuff was, not knowing things in general really annoyed me; and, the fact I TOLD them I had no money and it would be a stretch for me to go, and they didn't tell me about hotel costs, gas or anything like that is inconsiderate. If I decided to go and do my own thing but still be part of the team, it kinda... doesn't work. The only way I can see myself doing this for a long time to come, even with the potential for money, is if I get a team of my own that I can relate to and talk to easily.
Honestly, I felt like an outsider, and my humor isn't anything like theirs. I make a joke about dying and they're all 'DDD8' While my friends would be 'Bwahahah in a fiery car crash, whut?!' I find it hard to click with people anyway, and this whole thing is about building a team and finding people. So it's gonna be hard for me to put myself out there since I generally fail at starting conversations.
I'm awkward, and it's annoying cus I can say something and no one hears me so I just shut up, let them talk, and go off in my own mind. That and they live by the phone. I hate the phone. I've done a huge rant on it before. Calling people up. Making meetings via phone. I can do all that shit via e-mail and have a record of it. But, for them, it's 'too impersonal'. I don't mind the mentor thing, but I don't want to be treated like a patronized child. And if I'm going again, I'm planning it. At least then everyone will definitely be informed. The hotel was 45, and they had told me thirty. I didn't cough up the 15, cus I didn't have it. The 25 bucks I found in my wallet was from my grandmother for a pair of boots. I didn't get them because by the time I went back I didn't have my size and it was a 'liquidation' sale. And I ended up using close to 20 bucks for food anyway. The money I have left over is for gas, food, and saving up for car insurance. I feel I was lucky enough to even splurge on 40 bucks worth of manga for Christmas. And that's pathetic, which is why I want to try this business for myself...
Yeah, I'm glad I went to get the experience, and yeah, I think I should go to them, but if I can help it, I'm only going twice a year. That wasn't a Christmas present I'd give myself. If I make my money back for the registration, the ticket, and whatever other start up costs I have, then I will at least know I had it and came out even and it just wasn't for me...
They're inspirational, but I don't want 3 fucking days of that, and the people I go with are like, hardcore to the extreme and get up fucking early just to get close seats. I'd rather sleep in. I don't want to wake up at 6:45 to get there at 7:30 when the doors don't open until 8-8:30 and the thing doesn't even start until 9am. That's not even speaking for the poor bastards who got there at 5am and waited in line before us, so they can nab the good seats, then we come in behind to hold the fort while they go back and change.
It's not a damn concert. Even if it was, I still wouldn't. Only time I did something close to that was waiting in line for Hellsing Ultimate Dub Premier at Otakon 2 years ago. And I was sitting on the carpeted ground, eating a baked ziti, then had a book to read. That was a comfortable 3 hours, and I had nothing else planned anyway, so it didn't even matter. And the pre-reg line, but you know what? Even the wait out in that wasn't bad for me compared to LTD because I'm surrounded by people I know and can crack obscene jokes with...
For LTD, we waited in line outside. Outside, in the fucking cold, and I'm trapped because I didn't drive. To me, all that fuss isn't worth it. I think I should go every 6 months, twice a year, but they have 4 of them every year. Every three months. They'll want me to go, but I don't want to. Not worth it, to me. But the problem is, if I want to succeed in the business, the whole point of it is to be a good role modal and lead by example.
That's a really good thing, and I like that idea, but I don't want to go with those crazy people driving fucking 80-90mph on the way up and back. They're swerving all over the damn place and Rachael can't drive worth shit. She accelerates and decelerates and doesn't keep a safe distance and they all tailgate like bitches. I just went to sleep and hoped I was still alive when I opened my eyes next. That and Rachael randomly blasted her music while I was in the back, and I'm sleeping. Or was, and get jolted by either her sudden speeding and slowing, or a loud ass song when I didn't have any sleep the night before. That and we all were there at 8amish like we were supposed to, but ONE guy was late, so we turned around and had to pick him up. Seriously. No CP time, people. Then they wanted food. I was ready to fucking GO, and so we left an hour later than planned. Pain in my ass.
Getting up at 5:30-6:45am just for good seats to listen to people talk...? It's a waste. It cost 100 bucks just for the ticket. I can go to an anime convention for less and do more than sit and hear people talk all day. If I want to get anywhere in the business though, I have to, which is the problem. I wouldn't mind going, but I want to go and do it my way. Which is far more relaxed and no crazy fuckers speeding like they don't have any fucking sense.
The one thing that peeved me more than anything though, was that they were unorganized as shit. I am con!leader planner!X-TREME so for me, not knowing how much stuff was, not knowing things in general really annoyed me; and, the fact I TOLD them I had no money and it would be a stretch for me to go, and they didn't tell me about hotel costs, gas or anything like that is inconsiderate. If I decided to go and do my own thing but still be part of the team, it kinda... doesn't work. The only way I can see myself doing this for a long time to come, even with the potential for money, is if I get a team of my own that I can relate to and talk to easily.
Honestly, I felt like an outsider, and my humor isn't anything like theirs. I make a joke about dying and they're all 'DDD8' While my friends would be 'Bwahahah in a fiery car crash, whut?!' I find it hard to click with people anyway, and this whole thing is about building a team and finding people. So it's gonna be hard for me to put myself out there since I generally fail at starting conversations.
I'm awkward, and it's annoying cus I can say something and no one hears me so I just shut up, let them talk, and go off in my own mind. That and they live by the phone. I hate the phone. I've done a huge rant on it before. Calling people up. Making meetings via phone. I can do all that shit via e-mail and have a record of it. But, for them, it's 'too impersonal'. I don't mind the mentor thing, but I don't want to be treated like a patronized child. And if I'm going again, I'm planning it. At least then everyone will definitely be informed. The hotel was 45, and they had told me thirty. I didn't cough up the 15, cus I didn't have it. The 25 bucks I found in my wallet was from my grandmother for a pair of boots. I didn't get them because by the time I went back I didn't have my size and it was a 'liquidation' sale. And I ended up using close to 20 bucks for food anyway. The money I have left over is for gas, food, and saving up for car insurance. I feel I was lucky enough to even splurge on 40 bucks worth of manga for Christmas. And that's pathetic, which is why I want to try this business for myself...
Yeah, I'm glad I went to get the experience, and yeah, I think I should go to them, but if I can help it, I'm only going twice a year. That wasn't a Christmas present I'd give myself. If I make my money back for the registration, the ticket, and whatever other start up costs I have, then I will at least know I had it and came out even and it just wasn't for me...
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Date: 2008-01-07 03:09 pm (UTC)I wouldn't let them plan another trip.. ugh.
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Date: 2008-01-07 08:58 pm (UTC)Yeah, I'll plan it. And then I'll drive myself, even if I have to park far, cus I'm not getting up hella early for nothing.