Eh, I really am a bastard...

[kageisuke]

::sighs:: I should be doing my Grimmjow post, but I don't feel like it. My stomach hurts cus I'm kinda hungry, but all I have is Cheez-Its upstairs so fail. And I can barely eat anyway. It's like my stomach shrank down to nothing and I eat less than half of what I used to and get full. I ate a cup of RAMEN and felt........ full.... That's sad. I know I don't get out and exercise so I don't need to eat a lot, but one cup of noodles? ::sighs:: No wonder I'm losing weight... though I think that scale was lying when it said I was 156...

::purses lips:: And Asahu is mad at me, cus I wouldn't call him. I think me not wanting to call him [so he could hear my voice] made him think I don't realize the significance of our relationship. He said 'THE POINT IS YOU THINK I THINK NOTHING OF YOU', but that isn't true. I just dislike having to explain it which is ironic cus I'll explain it here and not to him.

He tells me a lot of stuff, and he asks for my opinions a lot, and I think he values my responses. I call him a retard a lot though, cus he fails at women because women are really, really, retarded and scarily two-faced. I appreciate this, and keep it all in confidence, and laugh and joke with him a lot. He trusts me, but I can't say that I trust him. In fact, I can't say I trust anyone fully. There are things I don't tell anyone, don't burden others with, and that's just how I am. I'm one of those openly private people. An extroverted introvert. Whichever, and can be happy and outgoing, but there are things I'll never tell anyone, won't write down, and just think about them a little then go on about my life. I see no point in dwelling in the past, but I do quite a bit, and I hate it. So I just try to live in the present or look forward.

There's no point in looking behind you when you have so many things ahead of you. You'll probably just run into something anyway.

Comments

[pink-doom.livejournal.com]

:::huggle:: I completely understand about your issue with trust. The only person I fully trust is my Mom. She isthe only person I have never been betrayed by.

[kageisuke.livejournal.com]

That's true for me, too. She's the one who's always there for me.

[pink-doom.livejournal.com]

Much love for great Moms everywhere.